Why must i be soo suicidal. . its like i dont even want to go through no pain no more. i hate it, how im insecure, its taking tole of my life. i cant even do anything anymore. every night, crying, why me, the only reason i havent done it cause i do care, how my family would feel. but if they knew what i have been through, and were in my shoes. they would most likely be the same way. i feel like a nobody. like im not important. like i never do nothing right. its weird that tumblr is the only place i confess it, cause i really dont know many of my followers. i dont want people to think i seek attention. cause i dont. i never tell anybody my real feelings, cause i know they are just gonna judge. i dont know when and where this is gona happen. or how its gona end, but i know, at one point in my life, im gonna commit suicide, cause i just wont care anymore. i bet nobody even will bother to read this, and well thats good for me, cause i really much rather keep this a secret .